Today, I put away nearly everything that would show others there was a baby living in our home. It was time, that I came to terms with the fact that for now, we no longer really have a baby living here. Hannah is a toddler.
In many ways I am okay, but in some I am saddened. I haven’t been in this place for over six years, you could actually say more like since before our first was born. For six years our dining room has been the day time place for baby if no in mommy’s arms.
This is not to say that we won’t have another baby, but, Hannah is nearly 22 months, and she doesn’t use the playpen, swing, bouncy seat, or rattles anymore. She doesn’t fit on a changing table, or really play with the old baby toys. She is all toddler, legos, baby dolls, board books and cars.
Yes, she is still nursing and wearing her cloth diapers, she still is snuggly and loves to be rocked. I thank God that she is hanging on to those for a bit longer. She is walking and talking and playing and well, also fighting a bit with her little older brother over his favorite car.
So, now my dining room is feeling kind of empty of all our baby things, but I imagine I will get used to it soon and wonder where I had it all to begin with.
I imagine this is what it is like when you do end up finding out you have had your last baby. Do you then fill that space with book shelves? A hobby? If there was an electrical outlet near there, I would put my sewing stuff there. Earlier when I was working in the area with my oldest daughter Lora, we thought the Christmas tree would be nice there. It is a symbol of change, and this is a change for our family. As to whether or not we put it there, I don’t know.
I know that in His time we will have another baby if it is in His plan for us. This is just a time of adjustment for me.
So, does anyone have any ideas how I should fill this space?