You guessed it, I am struggling with being content. Don’t get me wrong, I love where God has me, and I am content with being at home. However, I am struggling with the fact that I can’t get it all done. Last year, my garden produce was all preserved or eaten before it went bad. This year, not so much. I mean not horrible, but I feel like we aren’t going to have anything left. Instead of allowing it to spoil before I get it put up, I have been blessing others with it, but still. We relied on it last year, and well, I assume we will again, if it is there.
I know where the problem lies. Hannah last year was happy to sit in the bouncy seat while I was in the kitchen. Isaiah had a broken leg and wasn’t into and all over everything. Philip was home helping out, not in the field helping dad. So, I have four extra hands that I am having to try to keep safe, and two helping hands that aren’t here. So, trying to get all that wonderful produce saved for this winter has been an issue.
I won’t lie, preserving produce is hard work. And with our garden this year, there is a lot of it. However, my time is just so limited. I am not content.
I find myself seeing my friends getting these things done. Then I look at their families-4 children, youngest is 5, 6 children oldest is 16, five children oldest is 21, youngest is 5, five children oldest is 12.5, and so forth. See, if I just compare myself to them, without considering where God has me, I feel as if I am failing my family, myself and God. However, when I look at their children’s ages and the size of my family compared to mine, it puts it in a bit of perspective.
This year, I am also working at home as a blog designer, and a member of the TOS Review crew. See, my plate is fuller this year. So, I have had to put myself in my shoes and be content with where God has me.
So, my advice to myself, look back and see why it worked last year. Figure out if there is any chance that it will work this year. If it doesn’t ask God to provide, as He always does.
So, now, I refuse to lose any more sleep over this. Nope, I am going to hand it to God, and allow Him to guide me. See, that is what I should have done in the first place, now, isn’t it?
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Hello, I am new to your blog.
I am the blessed mother of 11, with our 12th child waiting to come home from China.
I love home education and have always home educated our children, so I was looking around blog world to find encouragement and ideas for my coming year.
Nice to meet you beautiful family